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Hi guys, I’m still alive.  Although I’m deciding on what direction to take my blogity blog, here’s a post in the meantime! Click here to score this beautiful coffee table from Anthro.  (If you go to their website without clicking the link, it won’t show up.  It’s hidden!)   I’ve been holding out on this beauty and couldn’t resit ordering it at this price, along with 15% off cause it’s my birthday!

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I think the only reason this beauty is still in stock is because the picture is wrong when you click this link.  I can’t wait to see this one in person.  I hope Selah likes it!  This price is for the twin size only.

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Thanks again to my sweet readers who keeps sending me these deals to share with you all.  Still in survival mode over here…..but had to share this duvet with ya’ll!  Can’t wait to share some more personal posts once I can string a few sentences together:)  Sleep deprivation is no joke!

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Colorblocked Basket Chair was $298 now $39.95 (plus $50 shipping….bummer!)

Handcrafted Buri Lantern was $98 now $19.95

Hey Guys!  I know these are meant for outdoor use, but I would totally use them in my home.  I can’t wait to get back to a more regular blogging schedule.  I’m starting to sleep in 3 hour stretches, which is an improvement from the all night nursing marathons that have been taking place.  Hope you all have a great weekend!

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Tupsa Pleated Jumpsuit, Rosebloom Burnout Dress, Coralshine Dress:  All marked down to $9.95!  I received this email from a sweet reader last night and had to share it with you all!  So remember to call customer service for these items because they are sold out online, but may still be available in the store.

Hi Jessica!,

WHERE do I begin?

I work at Anthropologie Richmond (VA). I follow Swish & Swoon and your instragram. My heart melts (MELTSSSS) with each picture of Selah and Duke! 

Anyways, what prompted this e-mail was a shipment my store received not long ago. Included were various dresses that have been marked down to $9.95. I know I don’t need to tell you this, but wanted to let your readers know and encourage them to call customer service if there is a dress from this summer or even spring that they had their eye on but missed. Chances are; it’s out there somewhere!  Now’s the time…

Happy deal hunting!

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A few weeks ago our sweet friends casually invited us to spend the day with them in Laguna Beach.  They had rented John Wayne’s beach house for the week.

Umm…let me think about that.

Yes.

And I’m so glad we did!  Our first official family daycation.  This quaint little cottage was nestled in the sand right below the bluff.

Perfection!

I told Travis I would rather live in a small cottage by the sea than the big houses on the bluff.

Oh how modest I am, right?

Selah had a blast  even though she preferred the kiddie  pool to the  ocean.   And Duke even fell asleep on me a few times.  Success!  Can you believe I forgot my camera?  All images were  captured on my iPhone.

*linking up with Blair

 

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Photography:  Closer to Love Photography Sweatshirt: c/o Skip N’ Whistle, Shoes:  Anthro, Skirt: Target

I know.  I’m neither skipping, nor whistling.

Is this an accurate representation of my life right now?  Some days, yes.  Some days, no!  But I’ve learned to cherish these simple pleasures whenever they present themselves.  A walk through the leaves with my family.  A tiny hand that reaches for mine.  A babe whose eyes light up upon seeing my face.   A day when I’m wearing real clothes and makeup.

I’ve had these moments lately when I question what on earth I’m doing and how I can take another step.  In the heavy darkness I hear my boy grunt  for me.  I roll over drifting back to sleep because “that can’t be for me…..”  The next shriek quickly awakens me  to reality and brings him back into my arms.  Holding a sleepy nursing baby is what these arms were made for.  This is my life right now.  I’m incredibly blessed.

 

I stopped reading how to be a better mom books right after I had my first child, Selah.

Before having children I imagined myself an endless supplier of love.  I imagined what it would feel like cuddle my baby to sleep, breathing in her baby scent and nuzzling her peach fuzzy head against my chest.  I determined I would speak to her tenderly, and discipline her in love always.  I daydreamed about the day she would be old enough to go on planned adventures.  We were going to have so.much.fun.

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And then she was born.  And then my romanticized view on motherhood came toppling down around me.

Since having my second child, my perspective on motherhood is a bit more realistic.   I DO believe motherhood is a skill that can be learned and developed, which made me rethink my ban on being a better mom books.  So I made it a goal to set some time aside to read up on the topic again.

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But I didn’t feel like a good mother at all.  A good mother doesn’t wake up with a feeling of dread or anxiety about being left alone all day with her baby and toddler.  A good mother doesn’t go to bed with the house in shambles, let her children watch TV so she can have a minute to herself, serve frozen pizza for dinner, or any of the other myriad offenses I committed on more than one occasion.  And I admit it:  I didn’t always like being the mom.  I mean, I loved my children, but I didn’t always like the work associated with being their mother.  And don’t good mothers love what they do?  //Allyson Reynolds, Deliberate Motherhood

Okay.  There is a ton of helpful, practical advice from over 60 mothers in this book, Deliberate Motherhood.  I especially enjoyed the sections on how to foster individuality, waking up with intention for each day, finding balance, organization, and cultivating optimism.  I was super encouraged and I plan on implementing some of these things in my life.  But you know what?  I found myself drawn to stories like the one above.  Because it confirms that:
1.  I’m not crazy for feeling like this sometimes, and
2.  I’m not the only one who feels this way.  I mean, there is at LEAST one other person who feels this way and she decided to put it in a book.

I’m always careful about the stories I post on my blog.  I never want my children one day read a post about them and walk away feeling anything but loved and cherished.  That is truly how I feel about them and I hope they feel it every single day.  That being said, I feel I would be doing them a disservice if I wasn’t honest about my struggles.  (I mean, I’ll share with them when they are older and have families of their own.)

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So Selah and Duke if you ever happen to read this down the road, please know that Mama loves you with all her heart.  But man on man, there are days when I feel I’m treading water.  There are days when I don’t have joy or fulfillment in motherhood.  But Honeylamb, Duke-boy, I love you more than I can adequately express!  I’m honored I was chosen to be your mama.